- Today might be really shitty at work. I have learned from the past, however, that sometimes when I obsess and lose sleep anticipating a stressful day at work, it turns out fine. Then there are the days that smack you on the butt and chuckle evilly because they know they caught you off guard. No wonder my daughter has anxiety issues.
Note to self:
- Don’t dwell on the past
- Don’t borrow trouble from the future
2. This weekend is a meet the co-workers barbecue at H’s house. It’s not that I’m not good at these things. It’s that I’m expert at putting forth a plastic, alcohol-wiped version of myself. Why is it so hard to be “real?” What am I afraid of? Offending someone. Drinking too much. Embarrassing my new SO.
I’ll let you know how these things unfold. I hope I can keep the made-up evil future at bay, and that I can report that I was “myself,” offensive, drunk, embarrassing, or surprisingly not labeled at all. Maybe I can be myself in a situation that hasn’t happened yet, and needs no rumination about it. Maybe it will be…FUN? SUCCESSFUL?
Let’s talk about rumination…
JK…my work day awaits. Good luck to you guys. Let’s go do this!