Tuesday after work I went to the Verizon store to get a discount that my company offers, but that no one told me about. One of my co-workers happened to finally bring it up around me. Off to the store I went for my 15% discount on my cell plan.
Could they help me with anything else?
Well, I was going to buy a laptop or iPad after Christmas, but while I was waiting for a “genius” or whatever Verizon calls them, I checked out the tablets and iPads.
Of course, the deals were on now. They could even charge it to my cell phone bill and I could pay it in January.
So, I saved about $6 per month, and spent about $320, before I walked back out the door.
Then I went into Panera in the same strip mall. I had a coupon for $3 off $15. So, I bought a 1/2 sandwich for my dinner and a 1/2 salad for tomorrow’s lunch. I got the discount. I went home. I ate both meals in one sitting. Thank god they weren’t full meals, because I’m sure I would have eaten all that food, too, if it was in front of me.
I overspent, and overate, and have been overthinking…I’m exhausted.
Then this happened:
I emailed my co-workers the next morning. I had a….migraine…and couldn’t make it in.
It was sort of a migraine, in the sense that overwrought spending, eating, and thinking can cause a major “remorse” headache. I didn’t know what was going on with me, let alone articulate it to people I work with.
I stayed in bed. All day. I caught up on all my Netflix.
I thought I had taken 24 hours to reset, but at work the next day, I was horrified at how easily I discussed the fact that I was out of migraine medication, how I was scared to have a migraine, living alone now, like I do. Yes, I would call my doctor.
What. The. Fuck’s. Wrong. With. Me?!
I need to stop lying RIGTHT NOW and HANDLE MY SHIT as my college-aged daughter says.
Time out, I’m feeling weird.